School is not going to be easy this quarter. Accounting is really hard. Spanish is pretty difficult but I do like Spanish so I’m not worried about that. I feel like I got a lot done today. Working out was the main thing. I always feel so good after working out. I can’t believe I’ve been back from Spain for so long. Things are so different for me now. I guess I’m just going through some down time. Laurel was just over and we are getting along again through the strong will of mine. I can handle her. It’s no use making enemies, life is hard enough.
Life is going by in a blur. I hate this fucking computer, it gets slower day after day. Anyways, life is still weird. I get up day after day and go about my daily routine. I am behind in my studies and didn’t do very well on my first 2 midterms. Day after day I procrastinate and am not using my time efficiently. A big culprit is this computer. I’m always writing e-mail or playing online. I just got done studying for my stats midterm tomorrow and I’m still not ready. But I just couldn’t take it anymore and will get up to study more tomorrow.
I really look forward to throwing a dip in and playing, writing on my computer now. This is a time I can finally express my thoughts through writing. My greatest enemy is motivation and time. There are so many things I want to write about but am just not motivated or don’t have the time. Day after day I am getting my loose connections back at OSU. Life is good and I am happy. Right now though I am tired as hell and just can’t get motivated to do a little homework. The temptation of the computer is overwhelming and I convince myself I can study for tomorrow’s quiz the hour and a half I have before class. I received a letter from Javier today and that made me glad. I really need to keep the connections I have in Spain. I also am keeping in touch with a few of the fundies. It is always good to have friends in all parts of the world.
This weekend wasn’t too fun. I stayed in and did stupid homework. Yesterday was the PSU game and I would’ve been tempted to go but it was raining and shitty outside. So I stayed in all day doing homework until Laurel called me and wanted to go out. She was kinda bummed so I took her out and cheered her up. We went to Gibby’s then to a movie. It was a good time. She just stopped by right as I was beginning to write this and gave me a thank-you card for last night. She is really sweet.
Well I’ve been back for a whole month now. I have regressed to the level of boredom that I had before I went to Spain. I am still trying to find a job but none have accepted me yet. The hard part is finding a job that I want to do. Today I did absolutely nothing. I looked at the jobs on the internet and sent out a few e-mails, then I got a response. He want’s me to e-mail him a resumé. It would be clerical work. I also called the union and left a message but those lazy bastards didn’t call me back.