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Journal Entry – 10.21.1998

Life is going by in a blur.  I hate this fucking computer, it gets slower day after day.  Anyways, life is still weird.  I get up day after day and go about my daily routine.  I am behind in my studies and didn’t do very well on my first 2 midterms.  Day after day I procrastinate and am not using my time efficiently.  A big culprit is this computer.  I’m always writing e-mail or playing online.  I just got done studying for my stats midterm tomorrow and I’m still not ready.  But I just couldn’t take it anymore and will get up to study more tomorrow. 

I just wish I could get into the groove that I had before.  It’s so hard to get back into the routine of studying.  I’m not infatuated with Laurel anymore and we are just good friends.  She came over two nights ago and we had a good time.  She stayed pretty late and I only got 3 hours of sleep.  Yesterday I worked out pretty hard and my body was just exausted when I went to bed.  But I couldn’t sleep and would wake up sweating.  Now I feel like complete poop.  Days are going back so fast and the way I view things or my conciousness is just weird.  I just wish I could be normal again.  Hopefully this is just weird thinking because I feel so shitty. 

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Journal Entry – 10.5.1998

I really look forward to throwing a dip in and playing, writing on my computer now.  This is a time I can finally express my thoughts through writing.  My greatest enemy is motivation and time.  There are so many things I want to write about but am just not motivated or don’t have the time.  Day after day I am getting my loose connections back at OSU.  Life is good and I am happy.  Right now though I am tired as hell and just can’t get motivated to do a little homework. The temptation of the computer is overwhelming and I convince myself I can study for tomorrow’s quiz the hour and a half I have before class.  I received a letter from Javier today and that made me glad.  I really need to keep the connections I have in Spain.  I also am keeping in touch with a few of the fundies.  It is always good to have friends in all parts of the world.

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Journal Entry – 10.4.1998

This weekend wasn’t too fun.  I stayed in and did stupid homework.  Yesterday was the PSU game and I would’ve been tempted to go but it was raining and shitty outside.  So I stayed in all day doing homework until Laurel called me and wanted to go out.  She was kinda bummed so I took her out and cheered her up.  We went to Gibby’s then to a movie.  It was a good time.  She just stopped by right as I was beginning to write this and gave me a thank-you card for last night.  She is really sweet. 

She stayed for a bit and we chatted.  She just left and now I’m back on my little computer.  I am happy, life is good.  The situation with Laurel is good, the homework situation is good, my living situation is great, my job is good and I am just really happy.  I am loving life.  The only thing that makes me a little sad es que me extraño España cada día.  Yo tuvé un tiempo muy bueno alli.  Vida fue más tranquilo y yo tuve mucho amigos y novias.  También pudo hablar en español.  Yo necessito encontrar amigos aqui con quien puedo hablar.  Pues no tengo nada más para escribir entonces me voy para jugar con el internet.  Hasta.

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Journal Entry – 9.1.1998

Well I’ve been back for a whole month now.  I have regressed to the level of boredom that I had before I went to Spain.  I am still trying to find a job but none have accepted me yet.  The hard part is finding a job that I want to do.  Today I did absolutely nothing.  I looked at the jobs on the internet and sent out a few e-mails, then I got a response.  He want’s me to e-mail him a resumé.  It would be clerical work.  I also called the union and left a message but those lazy bastards didn’t call me back. 

Other than jobs the main thing I am struggling with is the fraternity.  Do I really want to go back to that.  My Dad is worried about my grades.  I know my grades won’t suffer from the frat.  But why do I want to go back?  I think it’s just for something to do and the privilages that come with being in a frat.  The parties, the girls, the beer.  However that is all I used it for and I really didn’t get anything else out of it other than having something to do.  Now that I have an apartment. (Oh I am set to move into Olentangy Commons.)  And am specializing in my majors it may be time to move on.  One thing I worry about is Laurel.  I really like her but she is a sorority girl and I am worried that she will cheat when she goes to afterhours and other parties.  Oh well, there is nothing I can do about it other than trust her and hope for the best.  On another note I’m heading up to Penn St. this weekend with Laurel to see Ross.  That should be an awsome time.  Then I am going to grandville to see Alejandro for his 21st birthday. 

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Journal Entry – 8.8.1998

I’ve been back about a week now and I am finally starting to settle in.  I was depressed for the first couple of days.  I missed everything about Spain.  But now things are getting back to normal.  I’ve also got my living situation arranged.  I’m going to be living at Olentangy Commons.  It’s a very nice place.  I have to start looking for a job soon.  That’s not going to be fun.  I still miss Laurel a lot.  She called me before she went on the cruise and I’m not sure if she is back yet.  Ross is home and we have been hanging out.  Last night we went to the St. Stevens festival but there weren’t many people there.  I’m not sure what we are going to do tonight.  I guess it will be Ross, Jason, John and I doing something but I’m not sure what.  I’m kinda tired and really can’t think of anything to write about.  I guess I’m still not normal yet.  I really miss what I had in Spain.