It is 7:03 AM on Tuesday, June 20th, 2017. It is very late for me to be writing a journal entry but today is an unusual day. My family left for Japan yesterday which means I’m a bachelor for a very long time. This is normal when you’re married to a Japanese, they go home with the kids for the summer to see the grandparents and also to ensure that the kids are exposed as much as possible to the language and culture. My oldest son will be attending summer school in Japan and so his Japanese will get much better. He has grown up speaking it and was at his best at the language in preschool since it was a Japanese one. But kindergarten was American and so his English improved remarkably while his Japanese got worse. Living in Japan for a while should reverse that.
You said: “I’ll go to some other land, I’ll go to some other sea
There’s bound to be another city that’s better by far.
My every effort has been ill-fated from the start;
my heart-like something dead-lies buried away;
How long will my mind endure this slow decay?
Wherever I look, wherever I cast my eyes,
I see all around me the black rubble of my life
where I’ve spent so many ruined and wasted years.”
You’ll find no new places, you won’t find other shores.
The city will follow you. The streets in which you pace
will be the same, you’ll haunt the same familiar places,
and inside those same houses you’ll grow old.
You’ll always end up in this city. Don’t bother to hope
for a ship, a route, to take you somewhere else; they don’t exist.
Just as you’ve destroyed your life, here in this
small corner, so you’ve wasted it through all the world.
Last week I noticed we had the option to use short videos in our Facebook profiles. This got me thinking about what might make a fun profile video; the best I could think of were those wanted posters from Harry Potter where the image moves.
I had some rare free time so I put on my headphones, stared at the screen and went into the zone for the next two hours. It took me a while but I was able to figure it out using software I already had – nothing really fancy either.
I recently finished ‘Leaves of Grass’ by Walt Whitman. Below are some of the quotes I like:
You shall no longer take things at second or third hand…nor look through the eyes of the dead….nor feed on the spectres in books,
You shall not look through my eyes either, nor take things from me,
You shall listen to all sides and filter them for yourself.
A Child said, What is grass? fetching it to me with full hands;
How could I answer the child?….I do not know what it is any more than he.