Journal Entry 9.25.19

It is 12:24 PM on Wednesday Sept 25th. I’ve been very busy for the past week but have a few moments during the lunch hour to get a post in.

My mental state is not great. I don’t see how anyone’s mental state could be in a good place if you read the news in the morning. America is a mess with the Trump administration and to make matters worse, the morons who elected him continue to cheer him on. Trump could rape a donkey in the Oval office and Fox (and its mindless viewers) would say that bestiality is good for the health and make up a precedent from the Bible. I really wish I was exaggerating when I say something like this but it is the absolute truth and the evidence is plain for all to see.

I’ve gotten in the habit of reading my hometown newspaper, The Columbus Dispatch, in the mornings and the news makes my head hurt every morning. Republicans do not care about the environment, they absolutely love Jesus and guns (Which gun would Jesus choose?), and they no longer have a moral compass evidenced by their unwavering support of Trump. Anything goes as far as Trump is the one doing it.

But no need to dig deeper as the absurdity is endless. So where has this left me and my mindset? I’m so disillusioned by what has taken place with Trump and his supporters that I’m out of the nonsense American politics have become. America is a sinking ship driven by mindless capitalism where half the country seem to have lost all sense of morality, kindness or what is inherently good given their support of Trump. This is big for me. I’ve grown up thinking we’re all Americans, we’re all on the same team. At 42 I now understand this simply isn’t true. The hate filled, idiotic agenda of the Republicans is to blame for 100% of this. Just take care of yourself, your local community and any other things you decide to care about. No need to concern myself with America as a whole. It is a business and should be treated as such. Remove any and all emotional attachments. I’ve removed it from my identity and consider myself a Global Citizen. This is my viewpoint that will most likely last for the rest of my life. It is such a shame.

I need to stop reading the news.

Work has been busy. I’ve had a lot of meetings and am trying to digest the big account move we just went through. There are lots of relationships to reestablish and that takes time. It is not something that can be rushed and each communication needs to be carefully crafted. That brings stress as these relationships determine if I hit goal or not which determines my income. I have a lot to pay for and it seems the bills just keep coming. The stress here however is very light as I have some control over the outcomes unlike the news and the idiocy that is the Trump presidency.

Speaking of finances, I’ve got a handle on investing and taking control over my savings. It is all due to new technology and apps. Robinhood and the redesigned Charles Schwab app is great! Now I’m checking the stock market on a daily basis, making trades and have a good strategy. This is all due to getting the information in front of my face in an appealing format. Now I just need to make the right decisions. I’ve asked around, know what others do and have a plan. We’re going mostly dividend stocks (Kraft-Heinz, 3M) for the majority of the money along with a heavy sprinkling of speculation (Marijuana companies) and a dash of extreme volatility (Litecoin).

As for karate, we had our brown belt test last Sunday. I was very anxious about it and had to occupy myself during free time so I would’t think about it. I had forgotten just how anxious I get before those things. All went very well except for the last fight when I got kicked in the head. It was my fourth fight and Shihan said I had to fight Sensei Mike. Sensei Mike is the LAST person I wanted to fight next to Shihan himself. He will go at you and sure enough I didn’t keep my guard up and got knocked down. I still have a slight headache from that hit.

Well, that is all I feel like writing for now.

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Global Citizen! こんにちは!僕の名前はマットです. Es decir soy Mateo. Aussi, je m'appelle Mathieu. Likes: Languages, Cultures, Computers, History, being Alive! \(^.^)/