Journal Entry – 9.20.2016

It is 4:09 AM.  We ate pizza late last night which resulted in some very weird dreams for me.  So weird I don’t feel like writing them down in the dream journal but perhaps will write a line or two here.  I was in church and Duff McKagan of Guns ‘n Roses and his blonde girlfriend were sitting next to me.  I was nervous but able to ask him a few questions about the band.  Famous people are a bit touchy and difficult to deal with so I was nervous but he did answer a few.  Anyway, I prefer to let the memories of this dream just slip away never to be recalled again.

Today I have to go to the office for the Challenger sales training.  I’m not really opposed to this since it is free training and useful for my current job as well as other job opportunities.  The Challenger book also draws heavily on the method Grainger developed and it just so happens I worked at Grainger so already know what they’re going to teach.  I just don’t like sitting in a classroom all day when customers are trying to contact me and I cannot respond.  It is also a two day course so hopefully they won’t keep us all day.

One of my first thoughts today was how I’ve become so tired of everything tech being ‘social.’  Social is a big open forum where everyone is trying to be heard and they never shut up.  One cannot hear oneself think in such an environment.  What did he say?  What does she think?  Will I get any likes?  Have I offended others?  Should I read this random business article, or any of the tens of articles that a colleague I once knew shared?  Do I need to read this digest of ‘chatters’ where many colleagues feel the need to say something and for everyone else to read it?

*Reminds me of the Grinch as he complains about the noise the citizens of Whoville make but with a twist.  “Noise, noise noise, with their tweets and comments, their ceaseless chatters and shared this and shared that.  Postings, postings, postings, here and there and everywhere.  Pay attention to me they say, pay attention to the things I write and what I post.  ‘Like’ this and ‘like’ that, ‘likes’ ‘likes’ and comments, comments, comments, please do say something about my picture and like it as well!

How about not.  How about I shut out all the noise.  No more Facebook, I’ll delete the Salesforce chatter digest, I’m not reading any of the articles somebody I once knew who wears a suit shares on a daily basis and I drop out of this big forum where words continually stream from thousands of mouths.  Social has become to me like a lower level of purgatory that is close to hell.

I’ll become a digital hermit and this blog shall be my cave, located in a very remote and desolate part of the internet where very few have tread.  Here, I can be alone with my thoughts and in the dark silence of the early morning get to know myself.

By 魔手

Global Citizen! こんにちは!僕の名前はマットです. Es decir soy Mateo. Aussi, je m'appelle Mathieu. Likes: Languages, Cultures, Computers, History, being Alive! \(^.^)/