Journal Entry – 12.3.1999

Well today was a very boring day.  I got up and went to French class then went home to fix a decoration for mom.  Then I spent the rest of the day reading the paper, reading my book, playing on the computer and watching T.V.  I just had no motivation to do anything. 

The quarter has finally come to an end. I’m a bit disappointing myself because I let my grades slide towards the end.  I just couldn’t keep the motivation that I started out with.  I still have the option to take the finals but they are cumulative and would involve a ton of studying. 

Ok, first things first.  This quarter sucked.  Actually I ended up going to lunch with ____ quite a bit but I think I lost my crush.  I just don’t have the same feelings that I started out with.  She finally did break up with her boyfriend.  However, that was a boyfriend of three years and she needs some time to be single.  I’m not in love with her anymore.  Funny how I had the biggest crush on her and it just went away.  I do think I’ve figured out how to keep me from going insane though.  I need to get involved with more stuff to keep the boredom away.  I feel alone so much and all my friends have gone on with their lives and I’m kind of stuck in limbo. 

I hate being here and cannot wait to go to France.  I’ve been doing some networking and will continue when I finally get a break after this quarter.  I plan on writing a bunch of companies and getting my name in the door.  I really cannot wait until I learn French and can go on with my life.  I hate being here all by myself all the time and not really progressing with my life except for schoolwork.  I did have an interview with the Ohio Department of Internatial Trade for an internship and hope I get it.  The chances could be slim though because there are other applicants.  It would look good on my resume and also give me something to do.  When I have too much free time I end up wasting more time than if I was busy.  I feel like I accomplish so much more when I am busy. 

Author: 魔手

Global Citizen! こんにちは!僕の名前はマットです. Es decir soy Mateo. Aussi, je m'appelle Mathieu. Likes: Languages, Cultures, Computers, History, being Alive! \(^.^)/